To know you will be lonely is not the same as being alone.

Lonelineness slips into a knot, and you can feel its grip, its pull, as it tightens. To imagine you will be lonely is a romantic fabled concept. Poetry will fly off pages as you ponder upon the nature of things as you walk amongst trees, as your feet press down and you hear the crunch of bracken beneath your step. I have never felt lonely in my own company, but I have felt alone in the company of others. Disparate , indistinguished and inconsequential.

 It is true, the solitary heart thinks amongst everyone else, feels its superiority. I am special, I am alone in this. What a incongruity of ideas. This thinking can but only sever connection.

It is when I am alone that I have felt the most complete and alive. It's true too that I have felt the deepest despair , but think it was always brought on by the failure of relationship to others. Parent, friend,lover and even child. It's safe being alone. Some say there is safety in numbers. One I, two is a pair, three is crowd, four is a family. A man, a woman, a boy and a girl.
 
 
 

 

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